happiness is really short lived.

as some may know, my ah gong was admitted into hospital last afternoon. i really was very scared, anxious and shocked abt the sudden news. i didnt realise tat he was arldy tat sick. his condition has stabilised but he wont last long. im jus praying hard he won't suffer much. tears sprang to my eyes when i realised tat there was no more hope for him. it's really depressing to know tat we cant do anything to help him. i didnt wan to go to school today n initially thought of staying at the hospital. but my ah gong told me his sickness is of a small prob and told me to go to school. he has alrdy planned for his passing. i cant imagine me myself planning for my own funeral. i really admire my ah gong's courage. (:

im really afraid of death; afraid of growing old; afraid of suffering and pain.



now with all this happening, i not too sure if i shld go ahead with all my plans during the hols. my ma told me to go for the camp as usual. haiix. i still cant make up my mind. jus afraid sth may crop up during my stay there.


i will be strong! (:

posted by pam @ 12:56 AM